I used to have them ... they are always there for me. no matter what kind of shit I have outside, when I come home to them, they will be there patting my head, kissing my cheek and hugging me tightly. but then we are apart. I hope we will be as good as we were. this is my wish. but wishes don't always come true, isn't it? Although I'm still having them and wish.
For you, even though you are far away, but whenever I call in the middle of the night, you will talk to me for hours and turned me from crying to laughing, not mentioning that you are actually studying for tomorrow's paper. you will curse the son of bitch together with me just to make me feel better. you will show your love to me through words. I feel loved when there is you. but do you know that I'm afraid of losing you one day?
I used to have them.. I had lotsa fun hanging around with them. There are bunch of jokers and laughter. But one day, I noticed I can't feel their jokes and laugh anymore. I can hear it, but it's very far away like I'm being left behind and I couldn't follow their steps.
For you, you used to be a sweetheart for me. when I'm upset you are good in advising me. you are a very great person, can do things that I cant do, know things that I don't know. You're like my big sister/brother, you will lead me through the mist. But now, our gap is very big. I cant go near. Looking at you smiling and laughing happily with others in the photos, I wonder do you still remember me? It makes me cry myself to sleep sometimes.
Once I thought I have all. But the next thing I realized is the all need me no more.
It's 3 in the morning but I'm still up because I'm missing all of you, all of the memories, and all of the past of us.
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