Too many things happened on us. I wonder is there any more chances for us to get back to where we were. But looking back is not a good idea.
I have no idea how much wounds i've left on you, but im sure e of themach must have caused you unbearable pain. I cant express how terrible i feel. Why must made the both of us to stuck in this shit and never find the way out?
I've been selfish for a long time, and im tired of feeling guilty. Therefore i decided to let go. But u said u will be happier if i can continue to be selfish. This is not how it should be baby. Thing shouldn't work this way. There are so many things that you willing to give, i know baby. But not the things that i wanna take. And things that you always want from me I can never give...
Seeing you break down and cry is like being cut by a blade, at first... and slowly i got numbed. Yet, i still don wish see that scene anymore. Both of us are suffered for long enough. Someone should have stand out and say "let's stop this", but i know, it will never be you.
So I did it. I hope I'm not doing something wrong. I will have to stop my tears from dropping so that you see me strong.
We are so close, yet so far..... |